Reminiscing The Way I realised...
In this time of Covid 19, we all are inside for the time of infinity I guess. Due to this situation, our mood is going just up and drastically down from time to time. So, one afternoon I sat on the roof and my mind went back to the past times without any time machine obviously! That is the good and equally bad thing I feel that our mind can go anywhere, anytime without any effort, perhaps without any hesitation too.
When I think about my older self, I see the picture of a free, boundless person. Rather, it'll be justified if I put the word extravagant. So reckless that don't even give a thought about the consequences.
Feel the same way?
But today, I consider myself a more different person, wise one and sincere. Sometimes, I really think that how did I manage to come to this place, trying to connect those dots to clearly see the way through I came here!
I used to add in my life, many things, people, peculiar doings which are unnecessary. Did things or joined with many incidents, just for fun and also did those maybe because everybody around me were doing the same. The ideology of friendship, academical studies, relationships were so weird that didn't make any sense!
I can understand, a 15/16/19 years old girl don't realise the deep meanings and judge things properly. I guess sometimes the key to learn in life is to taste unusual different flavors on your plate. Without trying, no one can really choose from the options what is the best to fit for oneself and most importantly, what is to become as a human being! From the past self of mine, I chose the way I am today. That doesn't mean that I don't have any toxic things in my life, disappointments or any kind of issues. They are very much there, doing their nasty works!
But now I know how to handle them, what to ignore, what to detach. One of the major tip I added to my ethics, that start detaching, mainly detach those dispensable baggages. When you start this, and understand how it can effect, you'll feel light, easy, liberating.
I very much aware that, these feeling of growing up is not so new, everyone have their own ways and every other child will pass through this, they have no choice though.
But the idea of writing down these is if any of my fellow people feel that this is also their story while reading this, then it would be a happy moment for them I think. Also, maybe juniors can find it relaxing while following that they are just in a phase of life and started believing that everything will surely sort out and come up to their way as it should be.
In this time of Covid 19, we all are inside for the time of infinity I guess. Due to this situation, our mood is going just up and drastically down from time to time. So, one afternoon I sat on the roof and my mind went back to the past times without any time machine obviously! That is the good and equally bad thing I feel that our mind can go anywhere, anytime without any effort, perhaps without any hesitation too.
When I think about my older self, I see the picture of a free, boundless person. Rather, it'll be justified if I put the word extravagant. So reckless that don't even give a thought about the consequences.
Feel the same way?
But today, I consider myself a more different person, wise one and sincere. Sometimes, I really think that how did I manage to come to this place, trying to connect those dots to clearly see the way through I came here!
I used to add in my life, many things, people, peculiar doings which are unnecessary. Did things or joined with many incidents, just for fun and also did those maybe because everybody around me were doing the same. The ideology of friendship, academical studies, relationships were so weird that didn't make any sense!
I can understand, a 15/16/19 years old girl don't realise the deep meanings and judge things properly. I guess sometimes the key to learn in life is to taste unusual different flavors on your plate. Without trying, no one can really choose from the options what is the best to fit for oneself and most importantly, what is to become as a human being! From the past self of mine, I chose the way I am today. That doesn't mean that I don't have any toxic things in my life, disappointments or any kind of issues. They are very much there, doing their nasty works!
But now I know how to handle them, what to ignore, what to detach. One of the major tip I added to my ethics, that start detaching, mainly detach those dispensable baggages. When you start this, and understand how it can effect, you'll feel light, easy, liberating.
I very much aware that, these feeling of growing up is not so new, everyone have their own ways and every other child will pass through this, they have no choice though.
But the idea of writing down these is if any of my fellow people feel that this is also their story while reading this, then it would be a happy moment for them I think. Also, maybe juniors can find it relaxing while following that they are just in a phase of life and started believing that everything will surely sort out and come up to their way as it should be.
Beautifully written, Shailayeeđģ
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Thank you ☺️
DeleteYes, it feels good when someone expresses his/her feelings and we found a similarity in it.... I found, some other will find... Thank you!
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DeleteWritten beautifully. Toxic things will always be around you. But we need to deal with them the way it should be dealt with. Good one. Keep it up.❤
ReplyDeleteYes, well said.
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Oh dear, every word you wrote resembles with my younger self. A beautiful and well written post indeed. Keep these self realisations coming. And keep sharing.
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DeleteAm feeling happy to hear that it resembles with you, cause I wrote it down to give that feeling that we came a long way. đ